Change...To Fear or Not to Fear!

Change....a fork in the road....an end of a friendship...the death of a love....the end of summer vacation....saying good-bye and making plans to meet when knowing in your heart you would never see that person again...

I can not remember a time that I did not resist change.  It was easier to keep things as I had always known them and to define my life in my own terms. But with that fork in the road, if I had turned left instead of right, I would be living in Europe now.

Without the end of that friendship I never would have realized how much she meant to me as a friend....and either would she.  And now we cannot sit at the same table and share tea, but we can do it from a distance and talk about old times.

At the end of summer vacation we are blessed by the beautiful fall foliage telling us how our lovely planet welcomes each changing season.

The death of a love reminds us of how fragile our hearts are and how we should protect them with a vengence....allowing only those with positive loving energy into them.

Saying good-bye without really meaning to meet...that is one of two things....the biggest mistake of your life, or the greatest gift that you give yourself.  Some people are just not meant to be friends or acquaintences or anything to each other.

All these paths whether chosen or ignored take us on a journey that is our life. As the writer of my character's destiny.... I take my characters down their paths.  I hold their hands tightly, like little children... releasing them...like a mother chick waiting for the right moment when I feel they can fend for themselves.  It is almost celebratory as I watch their personality take shape by the words that I write.  When I finish a chapter, or a book, or a subplot...it feels like that exhausted happy moment after delivering a child.  You are glad the baby is out of your body...and your next thought is "NOW WHAT?"

And that is the fun part...."now what" is anything that I want it to be for both my life and my characters.  I get to give little Lucy curly, springy, carrot red hair....or Seraphina blue black, flat ironed hair and Cleopatra eyes! The twins.....?????

Embracing the changes in my life wholeheartedly, I am the keeper of my own destiny and ofcourse Lucy's and Seraphina's....and everybody else and their destiny...who is running around in my head...

To all those characters who keep me up all night...thanks for the memories!